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BTO of Vigorous
Jul. 6th, 2024 05:59 am
The pandemic and the quarantine in 2020, from the door, had me all depressed and hostile again. But then the middle or end of spring didn't even stop right there; coming out of self-negativity and watching KHORnime reactions on YouTube, I hear one of the old intros, and it was mentally like "Yo, I wonder how this person included this song on the intro of every video? This joint sounds good on my plate." I surfed/Shazam'd Happiness' joint, found it, heard that one breakdown part. It was so good that I opened Reason and flipped the joint afterwards. Pitched that bad boy up to two semitones, edited the swing of the audio cause I want that joint to really fit my imagination, and even made chords out of the joint. It's mind-blowing too, because reflecting on this whole session [fasting-forward to now], I always dreamed to be Q-Tip so bad that I imagined myself DJ'ing/orchestrating at some sort of a medium or giant venue to where Happiness' joint come on first, and then Vivrant Thing Remix (with Tip, Missy and Busta) comes in after that joint. Pigs will start flying over there at their spaces, but for me being a fan of these guys, it would've been really dope still.
(Via Instagram Stories, 1:00AM-2:45 AM. March 21, 2024)
...Listening to my last album. Some things I like about my project, some things I don't like about it. But I'm just chillin' here, taking a trip down the lane. I didn't really title this album just because. I titled this album like that while I was describing these times on Earth and describing my options if I should let off a furnace or do something else better than that. I was basically going inside the brains into myself and my own young generations that wanna protect their families by either strapping up arms or squaring up with our adversaries SO BADLY.
And before y'all ask, none of my music shouldn't really tell you how you should live and/or how you shouldn't. That's not what I'm doing, I wouldn't categorize it like that. I wanted and needed go deeper and deeper into human nature, plus emotional/mental nature within every keyboard I bless. Do whatever you want while you're listening to my music, if you want. Study my music if you won't. Analyze the POV that I was trying to reach so badly while working on this album.
Reviewing the Songs
"Copkiller" - I said this before, elaborating on how I had that scariest dream [in Valentine's Day 2021] that I somehow caused a friction towards 2 cops by letting out 2 shots in one cop and the same 2 in the other, and didn't even get arrested but got down on my knees and gave up. (The dream I had prior to making the beat the same day was actually fictitious.)
"Miniari Plaza" - My own small/medium ghetto creepypasta right there. I flipped one of them old gems and play the exact chords from the joint. Except I chopped it up even better. The breakdown, too, reminded me of when I was watching one of them Five Nights At Freddy's Plus videos on YT [for example], right? There's that part in that video where all them glitches came out of nowhere and the animatronics creeped the audiences out as soon as the "Follow Me" track slowed down and people started running scared. That's what I was tryna make my breakdown sounded like.
"On The Run 2022" - Loved it to death, I sorta tried to pay my homage to Dawko and Slick Rick Da Rula, by the way I took one of them fanmade FNAF records and "Children's Story," then I blended and stretched them together in like A flat minor or sum'n. Especially after I came up with the acoustic piano chords.
"Used 2 Be My Dog" - Also definitely tried my lil' homage to DMX (R.I.P). Loving the electric guitar/synth, drums and the tambourine fitting in and having a whole ring to it.
"2 Die 4" - Early 2000s feel, though I couldn't think of how to describe the drums I programmed on the joint.
"Hurry Up" was me dying hard to chase the cat, I'm usually a hound dog inside. Until "Her Dad" ruin the mood by not only me getting caught with someone, but also nearly finna get shot for trying to chase the cat. [I really hate how I made the second beat of "Her Dad" now.]
What I meant by "Your Final Flex" was me tired of not only complaining about the GRAMMYs snubbing, or the rise of fame leaving my dreams to shatter, to where I wanna act super stupid while pissed. I never cared too much about popularity contests anyway, I wanted to relate or "fit in," which I didn't realize was my problem with myself and all generations alike.
That's not how I should really review some songs from my album, but really, I just used my imagination. Picturing myself rollin' while struggling to completely defeat the zombie apocalypse (y'know, generational curses [of] the powers that be). After the first season of the same Revenge era, I wonder if my incomplete fight will be short lived again or not, except I can't finish the warfares and gears on my own.
[Why am I always comparing this?] Two years later now, I'm DEFINITELY weirder, and weirder, and weirder enough to describe my album as my Dare Iz A Darkside, my ELE and TPAB/DAMN. to my self-conscious Redman, to my Busta Rhymes, and to my Kendrick. Got really depressed after I finished the record. It was pressure for me to fight back against my past controversies, but somehow, still blessed to have a fair head on my shoulders.
Happy 2 years.
